Its been awhile...

Wow, I haven't blogged for awhile now. Life has been SO busy, like you dont even know. VBS is still in the planning stage; well the late planing stage, because we have 3 weeks before it is up and running, oh man Im excited. I thought CALM would be almost over... I thought this friday was the very last day, and I was wrong. I have another 3 weeks! omigosh.. I swear these are the longest 6 weeks of my life haha. Anyways yah life has been pretty alright, just busy that's all. My finals are coming up =/... I have my english part one final this thursday and my science final on monday=/. Im scared haha, at this moment I'am multitasking=); doing calm, stuyding, and VBS.

I dont know... I just have lots going on...I have so much to do that I haven't gone shopping for a whole MONTH! omigosh... haha wow, thats crazyy. I'm not stressed or anything right now; just going crazy=). I for sure know that the vbs orientation is this friday and I have lots to plan out and stuff, but I know that this whole weekend, I'll be studying for science... ahh. Dang, it's pretty sad to know that I forgot my science final was right on monday morning... and I made all these plans for this weekend arlready=(. Well if I think about it on the bright side, after this monday final, I just have one more exam to go and I'll be good to go for summer 07.

It's hard to believe that my first year of high school went by soo fast. I remember summer 06 and all those vbs memories... wow, I miss it all. Then it comes by again, just like stampede..=). Back to school again though... am I transfering to another high school next year or am I staying? Ahh im so lost about that. Im like on waiting lists and all but I guess I dont have the time to wait. I've been praying to God to keep myself together and be patient and to stay strong no matter what. There has been those days where I've really felt like giving up on everything, because I had school to do, vbs planning, calm online, then finals. Seriously I really didnt think I could do it. Until I flipped open my spritual journal and this verse fell out: "Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him…." Psalm 37:7.

I know I got this; anyways I need to get studying now before I cram this weekend=(... see you friday... VBS ORIENTATION AT 7:30PM... VOLUNTEERS MUST ATTEND=).

Oh mann

Ahh why is life being so hard on me right now?... Geez.

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Uh... no comment.

=/ Oh man Im tired tonight. Maybe cause I was doing calm for 4 hours and studying for science and all. I dont know I feel pretty dead tonight, also kinda feeling down and I dont know why. Im feeling kinda sick too and I dont know why?... ahh man whats happening to me? Maybe its my fault for only sleeping 6 hours every night for the past 2 weeks. Is that it? Lack of sleep? whatever it is... it's getting to me and its hitting me hard. I feel like dying right now haha, thats my feeling.. k not dying but some where close to that. Yah haha... anyways as my whole "no shopping" thing comes to an end this coming weekend, I really dont have time to shop anyways, so I'll put it off for another 2 weeks I think.

I dont know but why is everything so busy now? Cause school's coming to and end?(4 more weeks left) and everyone's starting to work hard now cause of finals?. Or is it summer or soon to be and the teachers are driving us like crazy with the work. whatever it is... Im feeling drained.... to the extreme. I dont feel stress though.. stupid calm. I am very much disliking it; the assignments are so confusing. I should stop complaining though cause I'm the one who chose to do it online....=/ this is what I get.

Ok so VBS... things seem to be coming along slowly but surely.. As the anticipation builds up within me=). Wow if I cant handle this then how am I gunna survive VBS.. 8 hours with kids?=) definitely worth it though=). anyways yes I'am feeling so dead tonight, I'm peacing it=).

So out of it.

Oh man.. Its been a busy week, it went by really fast though but Im so tired. usually on weekdays I don't know whats been happening but I've been waking up at like 5:45am every morning, only getting around 6 hours of sleep. I get home and I like literally run to the phone and start booking the places for VBS haha. Since I get home like 10 minutes before 4, I need to call before the offices and stuff close at 4, yah its been busy and I've been doing it for awhole week know haha. I guess Im adjusting to it. Anyways as you know I haven't shopped for 2 weeks now (excluding vbs supplies, gifts for others, and mothers day gifts). I still go the mall and all, I just stay away from AE that's all haha. I dont walk by it cause I know if I do then I'll go in there and buy everything haha. I do find that I have more time doing other things now that I cut back on shopping. Wow that's crazy... I actually can survive this whole "no shopping" thing, Im proud=).

K new topic=) haha, I watched spiderman 3 twice=). I'm not a big spiderman fan so I thought it was ok.. I know I even went twice with the same people too haha. OH man Calm 20 haha... is it cause Im a asian so im a keener also? finishing a weeks worth of assignments to get ahead? Maybe, cause thats what I did.. I finished a whole week's worth of assignments to get ahead haha. wow Im really tired now... at least today I woke up at 7am! Getting 6 hours of sleep again.. I dont know whats really been on my mind. I dont feel stressed but in a way kind of, with 4 more weeks of school left then its VBS from there on.

New topic again haha, these koreans at school thought I was korean and they started talking to me in korean and then they said something to me and I didnt understand, so I nodded my head and smiled haha. Then they looked at me and one of the girls was like "he just asked you for a smoke" and im like "Oh.. im so sorry but I dont smoke." I walked away so fast and hopefully I never have to talk to them again haha. yah thats my school life=) exciting or what.. Im actually korean at school?...

Anyways thats an update on my life- Im offf=).

SOO much..

Wow... there's so much to do for VBS haha. Or maybe it just feels like it cause I've never done this before. I should start calling up places and booking it all=) for summer 07! I've been researching them on the internet, so I have all their contact numbers. I guess everything's going pretty good so far; we got alot done yesterday, and Im proud haha. I've been so tired lately though, and I dont know why haha... I've been going to sleep before 11:30 too! I need to get used to it I guess, well I know the next 2 months is going ot be soo busy and Im going to say stressful too. On top of VBS planning and all, Im starting CALM20(online) this monday and it goes till June. Im excited but scared. I feel like Im not going to be able to handle all that, but I know I can. Im just scared, well the nervous/excited type of scared.

Wow, but I think this school year has gone by so fast and it just reminded me that I was suppose to drop off my transfer school forms last week.. DANG I like missed the deadline like 2 months ago haha, but they're still accepting. I dont know now, Manning is "ok", I like the people and it has taught me to go out of your comfort zone and make friends. This year was pretty unforgettable, yah I really miss my central friends and it has taught me to keep going on without them;and here I am.. I've made a few really close friends at Manning; I got to meet soo many new people. This is hard... I dont know if I want to stay at Manning or not anymore? I remember last year I said that I'll be at Manning for one year to be with half of my friends and also I made new friends too=). Then I would transfer to Central to be with my other friends.

That lady never told me the central transfer deadline was in March, and now its May... They're still accepting but Central is pretty full almost. I dont know.. I have alot on my mind right now and transfering schools isnt that big of a deal, well kinda. I dont really like Manning but I like the people. I like Central AND the people there. I have to plan VBS AND take calm online. I have school to balance out with Sunday school/junior church planning. Yes welcome to my life=). Im in definite need of prayers before I go crazy..

I'll make it official.

Ok I've officially decided... no more shopping for 3 weeks... starting May 1st=) haha. I'm broke again, after me going crazy at the mall today. Oh man I'll miss American Eagle=(. I can do this.. If I can survive 6 weeks of VBS..3 weeks will be nothing right? haha I need to occupy myself with other interests like... facebook? I'll make Geo proud when I accomplish this=). I think no one will actually believe me doing this. Tanya Kwong- 3 weeks of no shopping at all. I can window shop; but its not as fun as "real" shopping. I can do this.. I got this.

Yes I do=). I believe in myself=D. Be Optimistic.. its only 3 weeks. I have bestfriends that support me right? haha.

Chillin' with spring=).

Yes Im so glad its offcially spring and the warm weather is here! Its all good=). I hope my voice gets better though, so at least I can teach sunday school on sunday, aw yeah. Anyways as I was planning and all last week, for sunday school I noticed the weirdest thing. All my church stuff goes missing haha.. seriously. First I lost my bible, then my junior church lessons, third my sunday school book, and fourth... the candygrams people gave me; not all, just half. I really dont know where it all went, seriously I've lost it all, well I dont know if it got stolen or I lost it but who would want my church stuff? haha really.. In a way it makes me mad kind of, cause really thats my stuff haha.

I dont know if it actually all disappears into wherever or am I actually losing it all by misplacing it?. Seriously though... where did it all go?.. It makes me mad... I need to plan my lessons and I like keeping my candygram messages to read over AND I miss my bible=(. sigh.. where or where did you all go?..