Semester 2

So its not that exciting...I was really excited for it..and now im not haha. Well my day started off normal...new classes, new people, new teachers, new friends. AHH my classes are so boring...I miss my first semester classes now. Like yah I was looking forward to 2nd semester cause its more relaxed and less work...but I got used to having the 4+ hour of homework every night. Now its like art...yay drawing. Then science yay.....and english yay for shakespeare oh and foods. I dont know..I know all the people in all my classes cause its almost the same people but arg Im not used to it just yet. I think in a few weeks or like a month I'll blog about how much I love my classes haha. Yah so this is me when Im bored.... well not bored, im doing some english stuff. I had my first "science pop quiz" and oh man was it the sadest quiz ever! One of the questions was "why is 1977 money worth more than 1976 money?" answer: because $1977.00 is one dollar more than $1976.00" like what the? haha my science teacher is nice...but really weird. Nice because his tests are easy(not this one) but friends that had had him from the previous semester said he was. With his 20 multiple choice and 2 short answer unit tests. Not bad=). Ok well I have to go read my Shakespeare.....sigh I'll blog soon again..good night=).

what a day..

I had a pretty alright week. Skating last night was good as usual=). Came home, talked on the phone till 1am...went to sleep at 1:30am. Woke up at 7am, went to the mall with Hannah at 9:30am..shopped till 3:30pm. Im so dead right now. I still have to plan sunday school, plan junior church, and talk on the phone tonight before I go to sleep at 1am?..probably. Sigh what a day/week=).

Well I feel drained..physically and spiritually. My new years resolutions was to
1.) read the bible daily
2.) Save a friend/stranger, see them come to christ.

Yes, I only have 2, but its easier said than done. Well my first resolution..I've stuck too since Jan 1st, 07 but lately when I do read the bible before I head off to sleep, the words haven't been sinking in. I could sit there and read 3 chapters but nothing would stick into my mind. So then last night I tried really hard to focus on it, and let it go through me. Nothing was sticking though, thats when I went back to read my favourite verses..I have so many that I like but I always keep philippians 4:13 with me. I dont know though, like what is seriously on my mind?..I dont get it..what do I keep thinking about? Hope the lack of sleep isnt getting to me. I've been praying about it, over and over again..I guess this brings me back to a sunday school lesson of "God's timing". I could pray and pray and even pray my heart out, but my life is all through God's timing, not mine..so I could be waiting for the next few weeks to months even a year or so until I find out what's going on in my own life. Spiritually and emotionally.

I thought that I started this year with a good, strong, relationship with God, but I guess I had a few "problems" that put this relationship to the test..did I come out alright? Or did I come out with half of my faith gone?..Cause thats what it definetly feels like..I still believe and all that but what the? Oh wait...k I forgot to say that last week, these Jehovah Witness people came into my house=O! Yah they gave me a copy of their bible, titled as "The Mormon Bible". I dont know..is this a test God sent to me to see this if my relationship with him is that strong? Well its not like Im going to read it cause Im not. I also got awhole bunch of those brochures too. Also they called my house today and asked if I read their bible yet..and if I had any questions about their transcripts?...I hope I didnt offend them by saying "No..I havent read it and I wont..I dont know where it is..I could have lost it..but I heard that your religion is bad?" Yah now that I think back..it was something mean and rude to say but I really want to tell them to leave my family and I alone..they keep coming back to my house...once a week..I wonder if you can get restraining orders on these people?=). I think they need one...BADLY.

Now moving onto my 2nd resolution which I said I wanted to see someone come to Christ. I feel like I havent been trying hard enough on it. I pray every night to God to ask him to give me the courage and strength to do it, also the opportunities too. I get all the chances in the world, yet I still dont do anything. I can pray all I want but the relationship God and all of us have, is like a team right? Its all teamwork, and you dont shove all the work to one person but split the work evenly among both. So Im saying that Im praying and asking God to help me do this, and he's probably brought so many new people into my life this year already and yet I still haven't done anything. Im speaking, but I have no action coming out of me. Yah I can keep saying "I have 1 year to do this" but 1 year can go by really fast..like you wouldn't even know. I dont want to rush it either but if I know Im going to keep doing this..(is it procrastination?) then whats the chances Im actually going to pull through and do it? Seriously though..what am I doing to myself now?

Is this a test, to test my faith?...

what the?

You know some people need to seriously grow up, and let some stuff go. You make me so mad. ahhhh bestfriend you know what Im talking about. Lately people need to learn to not care. I really dont care anymore...

ok that was my angry some what let it out paragraph. Moving on now to my week. Mm this week was pretty alright, with no school....I really want to go to school now haha...I want semester 2 to start!! seriously I really want science...sigh I LOVE science=). skating tomorrow...haha sigh where are my skates?=(..oh yah k my mom washed my jacket=(..and she wont put it in the dryer to dry cause she said that it would "ruin the material" and I need a jacket for tomorrow. Im definetly not going to wear the thick heavy "chunky" snowboarding jacket. I'll find something somewhere in my house.....I dont know..its not a blogging day;my thoughts are everywhere. Too much in my life right now.

what a __________ day?

Im done all my exams...wow. 8 days of no school=), time to hit the mall again...just kidding. No more shopping for me SERIOUSLY..k well maybe after I get my AE polo T shirt and then I'll be done, oh and an AE sweater and Im done. K no I spend all my money on bbtea=) no most of my money...I want bbtea again. I swear I like live in chinatown or I should haha. Life's been good?..nothing exciting has been happening. well yah nothing. Mm maybe I actually should go out to get a job so I can actually be doing something and then I'll have something to write about=).

Except today when I was writing my math final..the gym was soo cold;serioulsy haha. I kept moving in my chair too, cause it was so uncomfortable. Then my teacher comes up to me and shes like "are you ok?.." and im like "yah...this test is really hard..seriously and its really cold in here=)" and then she actually helped my on my final=O I was shocked..I love my math teacher...Oh well, its so weird because at the beginning of the year my math teacher was the one I really really disliked. I dont know, there was something about her that I didnt like...and I was wishing for the 5 months of first semester to end and go by as fast as it could cause I couldnt stand her. Then it came down to today...the final. I dont know but she pulled through, she was nice to me and helped me=), I feel bad now. Like I kept thinking of how much I didnt like her and how she was a bad teacher. Then today..she helped me=O...it sucks now cause my first semester is over and, I started to like my teacher now...sigh.

Ok enough of my boring yet awkward day....goodbye=).

Happy Birthday to me=)

Yes, I've finally reached it... Im 15 now haha. Its no big deal, im 15 haha? seriously. Anyways though I wanted to say thank you to my friends and fam for all the birthday wishes and txt msgs sent..oh and those conversations on the phone too=). I can never ever forget all the AE gifts I got..seriously. I must admit I have too much AE in my house now..too much AE shirts in my house now, too much AE bags in my house now. Maybe I actually should STOP shopping at AE? haha. A week?...can I take it? will I be able to handle it?..hmm who knows?. My birthday today started off just like any other day, except this morning instead of my mom saying "good morning"..she said "happy birthday" haha yah anyways so today I woke up, went running=), came home, ate, studied, went out, fam dinner, studied, msn, prepared sunday school stuff(which took me forever to do), and now Im here. Sitting here wearing my AE clothes haha=) seriously though my whole outfit is AE.

Anyways, on my last blog it talked about what? drama? emotions? sadness? unhappiness? hmm its gotten better I must say, a little but it does take time so I'll leave it be. I've learned to move on with life..because I really dont care what other people think and I dont have the time to actually deal with it. I think I'd rather enojoy my life with friends and fam then sit around and dwell in the past=) Its my birthday today so HA. Ok im done now=). I love you lurkers..

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1 more exam to go=)...its a good thing right? but why am I not happy?...I dont know things have been pretty um dramatic? is that the word? haha. well its birthday galore this weekend...im almost 15!=O haha at exactly 9:08am Saturday January 20th. I dont know? mixed emotions..sigh. I dont know? why am I not happy? seriously...its been on my mind for the past days and yet im still where I started out to be, confused and nothing?...its my birthday soon, exams are almost done so no school for 1 week, got early b-day presents from the fam, pretty much am surrounded by the people that mean the most to me, I love life right now..but im not happy. I've prayed to God about it, and read my all time favourite verses in the bible too. I even spent quality time with bestfriends and family, which is priceless. I even went shopping....

I've been praying and praying....and im gonee....? what happened to Tanya...

What's on my mind...

Oh man, EXAMS GALORE this week...I'll be studying my butt off for sure..sigh. To me the last few months have been pretty busy for me. Alot has happened since september and its all been good and bad though. But that's in the past now and I've moved onto looking into 2nd semester, need to be optimistic..haha. Sunday tomorrow..need to plan my sunday school lesson, and plan junior church lesson also. That's so crazy to me though..I'll be teaching junior church starting in February...like I still remember being in junior church haha...I wonder how it is now?...Im excited though. Sometimes I feel like I take on so much, balancing church and school, especially this time with studying for exams too. I guess I keep falling back on Philippians 4:13 "I can do everything through him who gives me strength." So that's whats been keeping me going for the past few months. Still though, life's been good to me. I've truly been blessed with how close i've become with EVERYONE at church now, and how i can turn to pretty much anyone if im stuck on some kind of issue in my life. Gosh..I love everyone at church like you wouldnt even know! haha.

Moving on now, to my day today. It was good, I went shopping AGAIN. It kinda brought up something to me though, cause just the other night my brother had this program thingy that would add up all the money you've spent within year 05/06 and he calculated all I've spent and it was past $3,500 =O. I was pretty shocked haha. seriously i didnt think about it that much too and then it all connected with last night's bible study which Leo was teaching. Offering..like all that money could've gone towards church you know? but I wasted it on materialistic things...I must admit Im too materialistic...and its not a good thing to become. So I wanted to get a job=), not working in retail or at a fast-food joint but helping others. Kumon math and reading centre. I came upon it the other day and they were hiring "highschool students that are eager to learn and be in a school type setting helping younger kids with homework and such." I though it'd be a good experience.

I know more work for me, but I know i'll be able to handle it..and if i enjoy doing it..it should be a blast right? DVBS all over again type of thing?=) well i only plan to work on saturday though, so it gives me a weekend to catch up on homework and church. No more mall for me=). But i'll be praying about it..sigh so many things to do, but I like it though...fast pace life and always being busy i guess well not exactly busy but having something to do, like I read the bible too but reading it 24/7 isnt fun at all haha, now not saying I dont have a life haha k nevermind Im going to stop now and go eat haha. K so I hope we all study for exams and have a good week AND see you all at church tomorrow=).

I love American Eagle.

I can't believe break is almost over and we head back to school on monday again. Definetly not looking forward to it. I hope I get used to waking up early again..this past week I've been getting up at 9am or later because im on the phone the whole night with besties. Oh yah and txt msging too...=). All those insiders on the phone, staying up till 6am talking on the phone, eating on the phone, and the late night laughs...I don't know what I'd do without besties..seriously haha. Ok now onto yac last night. It was good=)..I was happy that Alex came back to yac after the longest time=D. YAC PANDEMIC--new theme for 07. Yah, so I stayed up till 2:45am talking on the phone again with bestie and txt msging too..again. My inbox already has 85 msgs, and its only the beginning of January.

Oh yah my birthday's coming up soon---the 20th=). Eva's is on 19 and Jiffany the 21st. Get it? 19,20,21? cool much? My day today was pretty good..I went to the mall again, went shopping again, went into American Eagle again, and then i got a pair of American Eagle jeans=) and got a pair for Eva too..so we have matching jeans now haha. Oh yah i also wanted another pair of new shoes...I got a pair of adidas shoes a few weeks ago, then I got a pair of DC shoes last week..and my dad made me return them because he said that it wasn't real LEATHER? well he said "why waste $80 on a pair of vinyl shoes that will rip when you can spend $80 dollars on a pair of shoes made out of leather that will last longer..just get another pair of shoes." So that brought me to go shoe shopping again today and my mom told me to get pumas=O..I hate pumas. Well she said that my adidas ones are for casual wear, and pumas are for...I dont know athletic wear? Well if i get a pair of skate shoes what are they for then? Definetly not skateboarding haha, oh well I guess my mom's point was just to have shoes so I could switch to different pairs once in awhile. Whatever..I GOT AE JEANS=) haha. Well this was just a pretty random blog of what I was thinking of, anyways thats all. See you at Sunday School tomorrow at 9:15=).

My day today

embarassing...haha


note to self: don't go to the mall with your dad when he wears his matching lacoste outfit with his lacoste shoes.=)