I'll Stand.

Its been awhile, I've been so busy with everything. School's been good, but busy; like I love science and all but I swear it is the most boring-est class EVER haha. Anyways, an update on my moving situation. Well the title of this blog is what it means like I'll stand, not rebelling but stand. I've stopped packing for the past week, and you know have been doing pretty much nothing, except enjoying calgary=) and the spring weather. Im definitely not ready to be leaving this city of mine, but in a way I feel like Im taking it into my own hands and not God's; but then God has put so many situations into my family these past few months its like a feeling of telling me to stay. So many situations have stopped my family from flying off, so hopefully I'll be able to stay=D. This is off topic though but my family still doesn't know that I lost my bible, they think I packed it in a box...haha... smooth.

Anyways, friends have been good, the pieces have been starting to fall back in place as Eva said=). I don't know though, I still feel anger down inside, but why? I thought I let it all go, but it is easier said than done. It's been hard, but I'am coping. Wow I started this blog like an hour ago and the time now is 9:42pm. I've been so distracted and busy that I would stop blogging every so often. Then I re-open this again and keep blogging..=) haha whats on my mind right now? EVERYTHING going from school to church to friends to family to everything thats in my life right now. Oh especially last night. They were good times, with them friends and golf courses=).

ok so Im back again and its 10:02pm. Ok what a blog... haha anyways see you at church tomorrow=) mm I want Timmy's tomorrow morning=).....bye haha.

Wow.

School's been so busy lately, I dont know I've been doing lots, report cards next week... my english teacher thinks I should either be in english honors or advanced placement because I find english really easy haha, having a 90%+ average in that class.. anyways science has been coming along nicely I'll say. We just finished chem and were doing physics now! haha. ok my life now; busy, hectic, and my decision should be one of my first priorities I guess but I made it one of my least. I just think that school and everything is more important right now.. well no but I just dont have time for it. All the studying and projects, I just dont have the time. ok as you can tell by what Im writing im pretty rushed right now too... so I have to head off now to go catch up on some B-I-B-L-E haha. well I didnt read this over... so I have no clue what it sounds like. ok I have to go now bye=).

Yup.

2 weeks left.... I want to go to YC though, If I convince my parents on letting me go to YC that means I cant move then, since YC is in May. Unless they want to fly me back just to go for the weekend haha, but my parents are too asian for that. Oh, well my dad started to ship off some stuff to the states... like my adidas shoes=O! I was so angry haha I miss them...=( anyways 2 weeks of mind boggling, to come up with a conclusion. So yes I'll keep on praying and definitely will be seeking. Thats my short little update right there=) talk soon again.

Here I am.

Im here, not happy nor angry anymore or sad, but content. Life's been fine, for now you know, no more dramatic news. Tanya's life has been content. School's been fine, family has been fine, friends have been fine, my walk with God has been fine. I need a upgrade on all that. I need it to be more than fine.. Im asking it to be good again, to be happy again, so I can be happy again. I have no regrets on anything still, I've got nothin' on you. Im fine.



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